hmmmmm. yeahhhh. hols over. shucks haha. but a great hols it was too! wakeboarding was fun! tho i was like aching like mad after tt and i think i sprained my neck or soemthing :s but anyway super fun! haha. yeps i think whe u go with pple hu are better than u it spurs u on to be better too! haha. anyway i bought a nice nice pair of shoes on friday haha. so tt made my day tho i was qt angry at first at having to go all the way to anchorpoint... i really do neda get a hold on my temper i think. hiahz. oh and i got an ovation when i drove off from church on sat haha so funny la. i think its clearly a miracle tt i passed lor. im seriously qt a sucky driver haha. oops. and yes duane what i say is true. i had a super kind tester if u get him, be happy! haha

anyway i am qt angry with myself. i think i really do need to grow up. but i dunno man its like i look at the other pple in church hu wanna become missionaries or full time ministry pple and they are such good pple! its like they are the super onz kind tt u can see tt they really love God so much and im here still like a kid :s i mean i do love God alot too but is it apparent in my life? i dun think so and i guess i really needa work on tt! but the thing is... i dunno din Jesus say to come to Him as a little child? what i think is tt i needa keep my faith at a childlike level but not use it as an excuse tonot grow up. so yeahhhh. have to learn to be more responsible. was qt upset on sat cos daddy kept scolding me when i was driving and i guess it just made me feel bad abt myself because it seems to me tt in talking and studying and stuff im pretty good at but in real like skills like driving and judgement on the roads and stuff im not so good at. and arent there more impt skills for life? but its like how do i cultivate such skills? dunno la. wat i do know is tt shouting at me is not going to make me a better driver, only a more discouraged and angry one. haha. but ok la i know tts just his way...but it still annoys!!!

i was thinking today abt this song tt i used to like abt how each of us are here because two people (our parents) fell in love and like how even the top scientists and stuff came abt because his parents fell in love and stuff and i was thinking tt its partly true! we are all here because of LOVE but not btw pple. because of the love of an almighty and wonderfully humble GOD we are here and we exist and wonderful things can happen. yeah qt a random thought while i was bathing hehs.

anyway i really shld get down to studying. this just wll not do. what is happening to me :s i used to be a mugger!!!! i used to want to listen and i guess i still do... but its like my will power has just dropped so drastically since sec sch... dunno la really something i have to work on!!!! haha.

im really so glad tt i have friends man haha. really really glad :) i love you all!